As you all know I am leaving tomorrow night. As the hour draws closer, my heart becomes heavier. I can’t possibly put my feelings into words, but I’ll try. It has been a really long time since I’ve stayed at home for an extended period of time. Ever since I finished high school actually. I went to college in Kuala Lumpur and after that, in New Zealand. I almost can’t believe it’s been 9 years! (Yea yea, that kinda gives away my age, but who cares?! 
) 9 long years I’ve been away from home. It’s so good to be home finally and be able to spend some uninterrupted time with my parents, although it is under these circumstances, but still, good times.
After almost 3 months of spending time with my family, it’s so hard to say goodbye once again. Harder than I’d imagined. As the date of departure draws closer, I find myself getting reluctant to part. I can feel the sadness in the air. Every corner I turn, there’s something that reminds me of the good times I’ve had. The familiar scent, the old photos, every turn and corner, even the dying plants in front of the house could trigger a sense of nostalgia.
After so many goodbyes over the years, I have still not gotten used to it. I don’t think there’s any getting use to when it comes to parting with loved ones. There’s a Chinese saying, the toughest thing in life has got to be parting, alive or death. I know I am having a really hard time to part this time, the hardest yet. Please don’t ask me why we choose to be so far away and be apart from our loved ones. Things just work out to be this way, at least for now. We certainly hope to be re-united with our family and never to be parted again in the near future. Wish us luck! For now, I just have to hold back my tears and walk to that departure gate strong and brave.
So goodbye my homeland, my families and my friends, till we see again…
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May 5th, 2007 at 8:03 pm
Hi CC, hope you feel better soon. Leaving family and friends behind is really a tough move. I can totally understand what you are going through.
Am going to write an article about Malaysian women living abroad for New Tide magazine. I would like to write about your story in the feature. Can you please squeeze out some time for me?
If you have MSN, kindly add me at odetorei@hotmail.com and we can chat more. Thanks in advance.
Hugs.
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May 5th, 2007 at 11:13 pm
cc,
Don’t worry about that. I’m sure there’ll always be the chance to be back to your family again. If not, let your parents visit you in NZ.:)
Anyway, bon voyage to you. Take care!;)
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May 5th, 2007 at 11:54 pm
3 months already?? How time flies! At a wink, you are back in Auckland. The thing that matters is the good memories and time well spent with your family, esp. your dad.
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May 6th, 2007 at 4:21 am
yeah its never easy to say goodbye.
eh u auckland what?
my aunt live in auckland 10
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May 6th, 2007 at 5:59 am
Dear cc, sorry for not commenting ur blog so long even i’ve read ur posts.. its month end, i am busy with reports with datelines.. like 150 reports.. hehe.. busy busy busy.. anyway, hope u have a nice journey (by the time u read this, u will be in auckland i guess…) “one road smooth wind!!”
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May 7th, 2007 at 12:09 pm
Hi cc…
i can emphatize with your situation, staying so far away from home..like you, i married and stay here in KL while my parents are both still in brunei working and reluctant to come back..i miss them terribly and constanly have a guilty hovering in my heart being a ‘not-so-good’ daughter ..
which is why i try my best to go back once a year (at least) if my finances permit…and appreciate every single moment i m back there with them…
hang in there k..
take care
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May 7th, 2007 at 2:19 pm
odetorei
Hello! Sure, see you soon on MSN.
Kok
Sure sure, we’re working on that.
wonda
The wink took 10 hours. ;P
So true!
Sasha
Yes, i’m in Auckland. You should visit your aunt and me in the future!
Alex
Hey, no wories. Good luck!
Yen Fen
Thanks YF! Always feel good to know there’s people in the similar situation.
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May 7th, 2007 at 8:13 pm
Cc, I empathise with you. It does not matter how long you’ve left home or your family nor how old you are but parting will always bring tears.
It is something one will never stop doing. Why? I don’t know, maybe because regardless, your parents will always be your parents and the love and care does not match any other.
My kids all cry along with us from young each time we walk towards the gate at the airport.
Judy
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May 8th, 2007 at 11:33 pm
also, thanks for yr reply in my blog – I did
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# Click Add New CNAME Record. If you’ve already created a CNAME record for your blog’s address, click Edit next to the existing CNAME record.
# For the Name, enter only the subdomain of the address you want to use for your blog. For example, if you picked http://www.mydomain.com as your address, enter www here.
# Enter ghs.google.com as the Host Name.
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The above steps – the www in cname was ‘@’ and i changed it to ‘ghs.google.com’. However, when blogger redirected me to http://lasilasi.com, the blog (which i see now in lasilasi.blogspot.com) did not appear – I imagine that it must be more complicated than just changing the cname, is it? Thanks again!!
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May 8th, 2007 at 11:42 pm
Judy
Yea, this time is just a little more painful though.
lasilasi
mm… no worries. I am a bit blur now, will try to figure out and post a comment on your blog.
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May 9th, 2007 at 1:56 am
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